Humbling

After taking a two month sabbatical from blogging, I'm back.

I began blogging to document the new season in life. I went for about a month before getting burnt out. 4 posts burnt me out...impressed?

Well, it's definitely been an interesting few months since I left my role at Trinity as a youth director. To be honest, I anticipated a short season of joblessness before finding another great opportunity in a church. I don't think it was arrogance that led me to this assumption. I had (and still do) felt clear that God was saying that my time at Trinity as the Jr High Director was to end. I think I just assumed that meant He was leading me to something else. "Something else" in my mind was a role in high school or college ministries at a church.

Well, after many applications, a few interviews, and a roller coaster of a summer, "something else" is indeed something else. After nothing really materialized with my search for a church position, I decided to increase my load at seminary in order to finish this year. To be clear and honest, this wasn't my plan. I knew it was a possibility, but it wasn't how I expected it to go. But that's okay, because I am excited and grateful for the opportunity to finish school.

If I were to sum up this summer in one word it would be humbling. I don't say that negatively, though it has been unsought humbling. It was humbling to apply to many churches, have solid references, and feel like a strong candidate only to be ignored or rejected. It was even more humbling to be turned down from part time jobs that I felt were locks. Knowing I needed to work while going to school, I applied at BJs, YardHouse, REI and Trader Joe's. Any ounce of pride was crushed when I got rejected from each company. When REI turned me down without even interviewing me I basically threw my hands up. I had worked at REI before and had great reviews.

I am excited to say that I did get a job this week. It's not anything I would have anticipated, but I am stoked about it. I'll be doing sales for a friend's brand-new company selling ink and toner cartridges to companies. It's definitely not glamerous, but there is a lot of opportunity and I do get to work with a buddy from college. For that I'm thankful.

This year won't be what I expected. But I imagine I will look back at it years from now and know that God was working in it. I did fall in love with Washington and Colorado in the interview process and so I'm hoping that next summer an opportunity for ministry will open up there for me. For now, I get to enjoy another year with friends here. I have taken up linedancing and I'm getting back into roller hockey, so that's exciting.

Grace and Peace